A high comes crashing down...

I didn't think I'd be blogging again so soon, and I never thought it would be a blog about this but at 1am where else do I go?

I remember when my friend was murdered and my passion for music began...I remember when I found out my friend was killed and who was around to give a hug. I remember who hung around together and who grew apart...those first couple years of high school SUCKED! We were tested, some of us moved on...some of us fucked up, some of us forgot and someone us live...some of us didn't.

If you read my last blog you could feel the emotion coming from it I'm sure...this one I just can't. The moment I logged into Facebook I got the news (thank you C for letting us know) a friend I grew up with is no longer with us. It's funny how today I started it off angry that some people/friends aren't around as much....it was directed at many but it was a reminder to tell people you are here! Shane was there when I walked out of math wanting to just run away when I couldn't deal with Jesse's death. Shane was also there when two other friends died the next year. There were days we'd sneak off to the park and hang out and talk...he was one of the few I wondered about after all these years.

I went to the beach tonight, I've always felt at home there...next to the ocean. With a candle lite and talking to a good friend I tried to remember how I got past all of the things I have before.

Though I may cry and honestly this one is hard cause it's bringing old memories back I WILL be ok! I will tell myself that until I believe it! WHY? Cause I am ALWAYS there for myself...and I'm blessed for that.

Season Nine American Idol review...as it happens!

Crystal vs. Lee

Never done this before but why not give a run down on my thoughts as the show happens! If you haven't watched yet SPOILERS ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll keep my thoughts in point form...ENJOY!

First off I love the way Lee has grown over the season and as Simon said last night this is what American Idol is all about, standing next to Ryan at the opening Crystal looked a lot more comfy...however oddly enough she almost quit half way through the season!

-2% difference in votes all season! Told ya it was close

-Judges intro...Randy I haven't noticed much this season. Love Ellen (who started a record label announced today!) Kara I fucking love her! and Simon...shit I have tears! Blame the wine or his smug ass...but damnit I like him!

-Top12...Do I even know all their names LOL It's a good looking bunch! I like that they picked "different" people...there are some funky hair cuts (PS I just dyed my hair tonight hehe) OMG OMG Alice Cooper!!!!!!!!!! I think Mom told me once she saw him or liked him! I do remember in grade 10 sitting in the park on the last day of school singing Schoooooooools out for Summmmmmmmmmmmer we may or may not have been smoking what Alice was!! Loves it!

-Kris Allen, when Ryan said last years winner I squealed thinking it was Adam, oh yah he won in the real world. I'm liking this song though...he looks good and kinda has a Daughtry slow song feel to him! iTunes here I come! PS- Song is over, if u told me Daughtry or Lifehouse wrote it I'd believe you!

-Flashbacks of Simon...LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's made AI what it is! Kara is going to take over his "tell it like it is" but isn't going to be "karaoke" about it

-Siobhan and Aaron - Bee Gees!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!...GO BLAKE, Jordin and Matt! I see ya there! OH SHIT....the HOFF!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too funny for so many reasons!!! Great song, and wow the old guy can still hit the note!

-Big Mike...poor guy was compared to Ruban too much. WOW Michael Mcdonald...alright, AI is making up for a shitty season in one night!!! Funny how so many finals have done that this year, I've never watched Greys Anatomy either and it was amazing...could it be the curse of 2010!

-OMG OMG OMG DANE COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK I'm so going DJ Diddles right now and SIMON why oh why are u looking at him so awful. Do you not know how amazing Dane is.....OMG OMG seriously DANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNE. I'm clapping along!!! SIMON SAID!!! YAY!!!! HAHAHAH OMG!Castoffs!!! I'm CRYING!!!!!!!!!! alright they should have let that go on longer!

-Beautiful- One of my all time fave songs! The girls were a good looking bunch this season! Perfect song...alright...Xtina! Why you here? OH yes that's because you just leaked your album and had to cancel your tour cause the tix sales sucked...good on ya for joining in for ONE line!

-Xtina solo...love it so far! She's got pipes! I've seen her live and she's always impressed me. PS- I want your glitter tights.PPSS You got bigger hips and I love that you still wore everything tight! Rock on girl...I'll be getting her new album!

-Boys turn! The girls are so much hotter this year...Lee and Casey aside of course! Oh my...I'd like to be a tomato in that sandwich! Good songs, another taste of tour!
I KNEW Hall and Oats would be on! It's strange at Daughtry's concert mom made the comment how many "older" people were at the show...well momma this is why...Idol hooks them in and those are the people that buy the albums!!! "Older" people don't download ;)

-Crystal SOLO...IRONIC. Jagged Little Pill. one of my top 5 albums EVER! OMG OMG ALANIS is there! Shit tears!!! For real! I said I would keep these points short BUT this deserves something more...2010 Olympics Alanis was under the stage for the dress practice and I grew up listening to her! Have always loved her and we got to chat for a moment! She didn't want her drape dropped, she wanted to stand out with the rest of us that day. I was at the end of the line and joking around after 10 hours of practice and said a line from her hidden song on Jagged Little Pill...she looked up and smiled...it's always been my fave and I freaked out when she re-released it! Attention artists...hidden songs on albums are RAD!

-Carrie Underwood. LOVE! I'd Loooooooooooooooooooooooove to see her in December but unsure if my parents will be around for the holidays so have held off. Hello HOT boots! PS- Kara co-wrote...see told ya she rules

-Casey James - My momma saw his audition and said Amber there is one I know you will like! PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUSE Bret just walked out and I started jumping on my bed. First off I LOVE this song but secondly Bret just came alive again, he won Trumps show and I just had to pause Idol cause I'm slightly freaking out. Rewinding to when Casey started again and going to enjoy this! Bret to Casey "I'm right here with ya" B we are here with you too!!!!!!!! Gosh you make guy liner look good!

*****************side note...BEST IDOL FINAL YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Chicago...right on! Great tunes...go Lee

-YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS Pants on the Ground! Dad is it in your head again? Holy crap look at that senior move! Hat turned sideways gold in your teeth...OH MY GOSH...WILL HUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOM BOOM Get Hands Up! holy shit! Best IDOL EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-PAULA!!!! Yes get on your feet people, do you know I did one and only one lip-sync in my life, I did Straight Up! I own Paula's tapes and will always love her, I feel like roller skating to her hits now!

-Oh Simon...you always did it YOUR way and 99.999999% of the time you were right

-Kelly, the Original Idol....OH Ruban! OMG Fantasia...CARRIE!!!!!!!!!!! Jordin!!!!!!!!!!!!!! taylor....Kris..alright....COOK where are you??????????? OMG CRYING NOW...THIS my friends! THIS is why I watch IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm such a sap, I paused the show...I saw people who I actually have talked to over the years, be it via texting, email, tweets or facebook. People who deserve to be there! Excuse the language but FUCK American Idol (and the other Idols) have done something AMAZING!!! I'll blog later about my tour experiences and such...but this launching pad that this show has created...words can't explain it! You have a beat boxer who made it, you have a single mom who's made it, a high school student who's made it, a farm girls who's made it, a marine who's made it, a rock star, a broadway star, a pop star, a dad, a nobody who today we know.....and so on! I'm going to rewind and watch this AI Moment again...AI if you end tonight you've served me proud!

-Awwwwwww Ryan and Simon hug! CUTE

-Janet Jackson....you remind me of my Roller Skating days too and I love it! I love your new hair!!! I've been dare'n myself to do Kim Caldwell do for a while and you are giving me that confidence!
Ahhhhhhh shiz...old school Janet! You go girl, talent flows in your blood...bless the Universe for giving us people like MJ and his fam!

-Tonight is about Crystal and Lee....is it? I'm still wondering where David Cook is? I do love that AI did pick too very normal people this year!

-C&L together!....Oh Crystal I'd buy your record in a minute! Joe Cocker! WOW...forever this song will remind me of the Golden Years and of course the Golden Grahams commercials...you?

-Alright last commercial...not going to lie I keep tossing my hair wondering how I can do this Caldwell but I'm ready for a winner...I don't think Idol can give me anymore tears...gimme a winner, I don't care...for once both are worthy for me!

-FastForwarded my PVR and I ALMOST saw who won!!!!!!!!!!! PS Watch that new dance show...Miles is worth watching :)

-Here comes the envelope!!!!!!!!!!!!! Awww Lee u are too cute! Before Vote! SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'm always right!!!! ALWAYS!!!! Even when I want someone to win I KNOW America....no shame on Crystal, you are an amazing singer and you will do amazing at what exactly you do! Lee....GO! Please do better that what Kris did...seeing you win is...is just as the song says...it's a BEAUTIFUL THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL buy your song tonight and see you in Seattle!

PS- I'm tossing my hair! lets have some fun!

And your Season Nine Winner Is.....

I DON'T CARE!!! I can't believe I am actually saying that! After 8 Seasons of American Idol I'm sitting here at 8:05pm...5 mins into the final and I haven't turned it on yet. OK OK I'm fibbing a bit, I'm waiting for my PVR to get ahead ;)

Tonight is the first time I've gotten excited all year! I went from the girl who made her work schedules around American Idol to Freaking out that I'd be in Thailand mid-season a few years back (we found it on at a pub HAHA) and someone who never missed a show (besides a couple before Top 24s) to someone who has fast forwarded a lot of this season. I've said it a lot this has been the worst season yet! No disrespect to Lee and Crystal who I do like! I've been saying all season that it's because season 10 is going to go out with a bang! Simon is leaving us tonight, they need to do something. Lets not end it on a low note...and hey if for some reason next seasons ratings grow without Simon then Fox will keep it going...but it won't!

Tonight I'm excited to see past Idols! I've been watching them tweet this week as they have arrived in LA, yesterday many of them tweeting pics of them with the others. I'm excited to see Dane Cook, he tweeted too HAHA I'm excited to see Blake Lewis, tho he's grouped in the past Idol bunch he's become someone I know and respect his work so much! Plus who couldn't love someone who gave us (mom and I) their front row tix at Daughtry on Mothers Day no less!!! I'm excited to see who else may be there...I'm excited that I AM excited!!! Mom and I have tix to the tour in July and I was getting worried that well...that I wasn't going to be excited. One thing I'm not excited to see is Simon go, love him or hate him he knows his stuff and he's not afraid to say it. Sure he may say the strangest things BUT how else do you say to a lame singer "That sounded like something from a cruise ship"? I'm sad to see him go, he's done a lot for America but I'm also excited to see what he will do next!

So since I'm so excited...it's time to watch! Prediction: I can't! Crystal should get it but America often doesn't get it right, they never seem ready enough for someone a bit different...Lee may win this and it may just be the closest race yet!

Baccccccccon

Bacon! It's good on everything right? Be it the fake lil bits or the strips dripping in grease, bacon makes it better!
A long time ago, perhaps I shouldn't say it was a long time ago...although it was more than 10 years ago it does feel like yesterday...my Uncle Larry would make use breakfast when we visited and peameal bacon was always involved (Along with the peach schnapps in the peach juice...who needs coffee!) I think my true love for bacon came then...it was delish!!!

Years later I discovered "Real Bacon Bits" alright they came in a bag that would last forever so who knows how real those were BUT have you tried them KD? I'm not talking the deluxe Kraft Dinners, I'm talking about the old school ones that everyone says college kids eat! Add a lil "Real Bacon Bits" to the mix and you have yourself something that well will impress the whole dorm!

Now don't think I eat bacon all the time, as much as I'd like to I HATE cooking it!!! Too many times have I attempted to make breakfast, only half clothed...bacon doesn't understand that splashing isn't fun in the AM!!! I did however get introduced to this wonderful bacon invention last month. My lovely Auntie J cooked us breakfast while we were visiting and microwaved us some bacon...yes MICROWAVED!!! I would have thought it would come out a mushy mess but noooooooooooo it was crisp, not fatty and wonderful!

Last Sunday I woke up slightly hungover...I had bought a box of microwave bacon the day before and popped half of it in the mic...what came out was a pure hangover heaven cure!

A Way to spend a Saturday!

So I am home...HOME! Gosh I've missed this feeling, it's been a while! I'm home on a Saturday night, I've been wanting to sleep for a few hours but I can't...I have tooth picks in my eyes and am up listening to Blake Lewis' farewell set in Seattle! I should have gone but I didn't...I wanted to but there are so many Seattle trips planned this summer and really...HOME was needed!!!

So as I sit and listen I think of AMERICAN IDOL...this year I must say WTF, and that's putting it polite! I will paste my blog I wrote last year...365-7 days ago! I re-read it tonight and could help but laugh! Have I really figured out the American Idol key...I've been saying since season 2 that every second year is a lame season...this year though is the lamest of the lame!!! I'm thinking it's because Seasons 10, the final season me thinks, will be a blow out amazing shhhhhhhBANG! Once you read my blog I wrote last year you will learn my distaste, this is the first season ever that I've missed shows! I record them on my PVR and do a fast catch up...I've only bought one track from the whole season from iTunes when I normally buy almost all of them. I have however bought the tour tickets for Seattle...in part because I love trips to Seattle and I will fail in life IF I miss one tour out of all of them...but it's also a weekend I can spend with mom and I want nothing more than to take her to LaPush, is it sad that I am more excited for the morning after Tour 2010 than the night of?

So be it! Prove me right American Idol...do your season 10 like no other and end on an amazing high note! Kara is already being more of a hardass and saying it the biz way, Ellen is funny and has taken over Paula but not as fluffy and Randy well...he's Randy! My guess American Idol season 10 will be the best we've ever seen and to fill Simon's spot...the best Idols from past seasons!!! I'd like to see Blake, Carrie, Chris Daughtry, David Cook, Kelly C and Kelly P! A ton of highlights shown and the best top 10 we've ever seen!!!

And here's my blog from last year...thoughts please!

12:13AM...Friday night...I turned on Larry King knowing Adam (yes I say him first) and Kris, and the other American Idol folks will be on.
I want to comment and tonight I am going to comment freely! Many have asked me to blog about this however I have waited until tonight, calm the rage...see the reaction and allow myself to speak my mind.
I started watching American Idol the last week of "audition week" during Season One! I was doing promotions that summer and remember being out but one girl had a VCR and I'd watch the show before going home for the night. By the end of season one I had my parents hooked. Sure my mom was going to love it but my dad was a truck driving harley guy!!! He'd call home on Tues & Wed nights from truck stops fighting who sung better and believe me he wasn't the only one calling home doing that!

Right off I'm gonna say Kris...I remember Simon saying he shouldn't have said he was married, true....honestly until the end that's the only thing I remember about him! I'm sorry Kris I think you have a great voice, you are cute but being a girl from Vancouver I see you all the time. Now before all you Kris fans come hating I DO wish him the best, I DO Like him he's actually my fave genre but in 24 months please ask me where Kris Allen is?

During this season I figure out a very important thing! Every second year it's a "downer year" as I call it. Think back to last year...David Cook..WOW It was big...two Davids going at it, teenie boopers against young adult boopers...it was huge! Now the year before that, last two Jordin VS Blake Lewis...SORRY but it was only one notch up from the sleeper season number 3. Don't get me wrong, I loved the Blake and Jordin Battle(Field) (go get her new song on iTunes it's wonderful) but it was a year I wanted to hide my face in a pillow.

America was not ready for Blake Lewis! Where is he now??? Remember Flock Of Seagulls??? Remeber I RAN??? Well now you can hear it in todays day and age! Blake has teamed up with people like DARUDE and other dance floor power houses and is taking the music world by storm....but believe me there is NO "calm before the storm" with this west coast superstar!

Now back to the voting!!! I remember back in the day when I couldn't vote (I've only voted a couple times being in the states and then again the final night this season & 6 in for Adam!) I remember when blogs would vote against someone to save someone else. Sorry Ryan Starr you were a victim of this, I remember when she was voted out and the work the bloggers did before hand.

I never watched TV much after the real 90210 ended and American Idol started, I was never "hooked" as much until then....once AI started it was like a game for me at first and it was like I studied it. The information would come to me, I guess the day and age of the internet it landed on my lap. Heck strange things always happened like us ending up backstage the second tour and changing shirts with an Idol cause mine said "Canada EH?"...oh the memories. I find it funny to say I have never missed an AI show, even if I have to catch up when I am away. I have been to every top 10 concert and do take this on as my personal mission. Will they make it or will they not? The last two years I sit during audition week with a pad of paper marking down ppl I like and by golly I am good at my game!

So now that I've given a bit of how I have felt over the years how do I feel about this season??? I knew it was a "down" season...it didn't seem to have that PHUMP and battle throughout. Adam was amazing since the start but what happened??????????????????????????

I've been a Perez Hilton daily (actually at least 10x a day) reader since for years now and saw the drag pics of Adam, being gay or not it still came out....and it came out that Kris was the "boy next door".Take things to the top 3 now...you have Danny in the mix ....all of a sudden you take Danny out and what are his fans going to do? Danny the great guy with the great story and voice? Yes his fans were going to vote for Kris. Sad fact but it does happen!!! Fans ban together via blogs and word of mouth.

Was Amerca ready for an openly gay (I know he hasn't admited it....but gay or not...perhaps those interesting pics could come into play...Adam lets share make up!) anyway was America ready??? NO!!!! Sad shame cause people are people no matter what the say.
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I've had friends mention "who cares second best does better!!!" It's not about that that this time on Idol...Adam was a clear front runner from the start which doesn't normally happen on this show. He was good and still pushed forward to keep growing. iTunes already has proved who has won....it really is the power of today.

I hope next year AI will push the boundries again. I hope artists like Blake Lewis will be invited back to show AI talented artists do all sorts of directions and sometimes it's even better than the cheese they serve with the wine I drink on Wednesday nights