Often times I sit and say GOSH I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT THAT! Bit I'm too scared, shy, closed up....and don't! From now on when I have a feeling, a profound thought in length or something I want to talk about I'm going to blog! People will read it or they will not...but I'm going to let it flow!!!!!!!!!!
What sparked this?????? MUSIC of course!!!!!!!!!!
There is this amazing song, watch this first! It's called STORM by Lifehouse, or actually Jason Wade, their lead singer! Here read along!.... I'm going to again as I hear it, because TONIGHT it brought out something totally different in the song for me! Nothing about crazy relationships and rocky love, but about real love and family!....at the points I fell I will write comments in **** before. Enjoy...this song is in my top fave 10 forever!
how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
**** reminds me of the both times my parents were in the hospital with heart problems!!! it was a storm, it's shapeless and suffocating!
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light
*****I as right there when both of them went to hospital but I also felt like I wasn't....with dad I was young, and with mom I went into survival mode, call 911, get her to hospital, wtf nothing can be wrong it's mom she's superwoman!
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright
**** Exactly how I feel cause no matter what with my folks, everything will be ALRIGHT...I guess I live in reality cause I learned young and I know I won't have them forever (in this life with me) but because I've come close to losing them both before I find comfort in knowing everything will be alright
I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
**** This really reminds me of when I was 12...after that I didn't know my purpose, I was trying to grow up too fast, I just didn't care about me anymore...nothing was alright! BUT I do feel blessed from those years, I've turned them into who I am now and don't regret a thing
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I see you
the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright
*****
I do walk on water, my folks catch me when I fall...I do get lost in my dads eyes when I want to say things and with them I know everything is alright!!
Where did this all spark from?????? The reality of them moving away! It sucks...I HATE when they say it would be easier if I was "with someone"...sorry but I don't want it that way right now! I'm happy, I'm building my life...I like that I am living on my own but yes I need my mommy and daddy! I laugh that they are leaving me...they came here and 31 years later they are leaving me!!!!!!! Like LEAVING ME! Really who does that? I guess I had it coming...I wanted to leave them for so long to go back to the east. I'm happy they are going to be around family, it's something I long for....but I so worry that I can't get there if something happens.
It's silly as I listen to this song OVER AND OVER tonight! I remember the first time I heard it, going over the bridge into Seattle...my mom LOVES Lifehouse, lifehouse reminds me of Seattle....lifehouse reminds me of Dave from Wave when we first went to their concert years ago, lifehouse reminds me of starting my career, of figuring out my passions because music gave me peace when I needed comfort!
And as I write this...I've figured out I need to race off to Seattle in a few hours with a VERY good friend and see someone else. I am going to be very over tired but I don't care! I'm following my passions, my dreams.........my storm!
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
My 31st in VEGAS
Ugg so I haven't wrote since then...I know I know I suck, I'm going to start putting a reminder on my phone alarm to write! So I went to Vegas for my 31st Birthday, my good friend Mario took me...it was a blast! Before I had left I wrote a check list on here...lets see what I was able to complete!
-Put money down on RED and perhaps ODD...cause well ummm lol I DID! AND WON 5 BUCKS
-Say HIT ME or stay - FAIL...BUT WATCHED MARIO DO IT
-Put money in the first machine that calls my name when I step off the airplane - FAIL...I NEEDED TO PEE
-Say hi to the white tigars...I talk to the guy who raised them! Neat!- FAIL THEY CLOSED AT 4PM THAT DAY
-Go look at the sharks at Mandalay Bay - GOT TO THE GATES OF IT AND MARIO DIDN'T WANNA
-See the dancing water - THE WATER DANCED TO THIS KISS THIS KIIIIIIIIIIIISS
-Order the Gamblers Special which isn't on the menu at our hotel...it's a steak for 7.77 mmmmmmmmm - I WAS FAR MORE INTERESTED IN PINK TACO
-Have the cheapest breakfast in town - ONLY ATE ONE BREAKIE
-Planet Hollywood buffet - CHANGED TO MANDALAY BAY AND HAD A BDAY DINNER THERE
-Rehab!!! that's on my bday - REHAB WANTED TO CHARGE US 100 BUCKS THO WE WERE STAYING AT THAT HOTEL...WE SAID NO NO NO...WENT TO THE POOL ON THE OTHER SIDE YET COULD HEAR THE MUSIC STILL
-Oakenfold on Saturday - YUPPERS! DIDN'T STAY TOO LONG BUT GOT A GOOD TASTE OF RAIN
-Kaskade at Encore Pool Party on my bday - TALKED MY WAY INTO THIS PRICEY PARTY WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ON THE LIST BUT NAME DIDN'T SHOW UP AS THEY SAID STILL GOT IN FREE
-Maybe go on some crazy ride off the tower - NAWWWWWW
-get a sun burn - I TIRED
-Ask Elvis if he has the hippy hippy shakes - ELVIS WAS FAT! EVERYTHING SHOOK
-Run away from any mimes! - I SURE DID RUN!
-Hit the jackpot!!! MISSION COMPLETE!!!
So we got there after some delays with flights out of LAX, hung around the Hard Rock Hotel...which I LOVED! We found Pink Taco which I loved...the tortilla soup was delish and the salsa was yummy! Had mini tacos that night, pink tacos actually ;) they had pink pickled cabbage on them...oh so delish! We rested a bit and headed over the The Palms to hit up RAIN! It was strange cabbing over there, I had heard about these hotels and clubs for years...and now I was really going to them! Was there when I was 17 but that counts for nothing! My buddy DJ Kenneth Thomas got us on the list for RAIN that night where Paul Oakenfold was having his night. Sad to say I had a huge migraine so wasn't going to last long....shortly after midnight (I managed to stay until it was my bday) I cabbed back to the hotel and crashed before Mario returned.
The next morning we woke and poured more drinks...I couldn't get drunk for the life of me though!!! Not even a good buzz until the last night... honestly I think that's a good thing though! We headed over to The Wynn and Encore for their pool party! We were to be on Kaskade's guestlist but unsure what happened...they tried to charge us 50 bucks as guests to get in and we laughed...managed to say the right names and walked right in. Mario and I both ordered a drink...he had his normal double vodka 7 with a splash of Orange...28 bucks! She looked and said "Welcome to the Wynn!" Needless to say we didn't stay long...headed back to our hotel and tired to go to REHAB, the Hard Rock's pool party...they wanted 100 bucks! HELL NO! We were guests...but management changed the rules and cause we booked online via a third party we weren't allowed in the big pool on Sunday...BS! Went to the other pool, just as good with a beach and swim up tables! Had some drinks and then hit the machines after. We also went to Mandalay Bay for their Buffet! Was very good....so much to choose from! We wondered the hotel, then went to Luxor and Excalibur, both I had been to before and both didn't seem nearly as cool...I really wanted to play some games at Excalibur like I did when I was 17, they were lacking now...or perhaps I just grew up! I did see my Gas Station on the lot though!!! When I was there before I saved all my money for the games and at .50 cheeseburgers from the A&P! (sorry folks!)
SCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE....Oh backtrack first. Mario had a 3 buck voucher and said I could use it in the penny machine, a few mins later I had that voucher up to 26 bucks! Ok cash out time! I put in my own dollar...had it down only a handful of pennies when cha-ching...100 bucks!
Monday Mario went and played some poker so I thought I'd go on an adventure and MY GOSH was it ever fun! I took a cab to Planet Hollywood where they had a mile long shopping mall. I wondered around there and bought a Coat of Arms an Clan information of my Last Name...i've always wanted one of these so spent the 60 bucks to get it!!! I figure when I get married one day at least I'll have something with my old name on it...I also got my folks one, I hope they like it! It should be arriving any day...
After some shopping I put a buck into the penny machine at the Paris hotel...woohoo a couple spins in 15 bucks came out! Cash out time and move machines!!! Won a lil more in that hotel and cashed in my vouchers to move onto the next hotel!!! I could go on and on but you are all going to hate me...cause I'm a winner baby! My 1 buck I started with had me playing ALL day! 6.5 hours and every hotel from Paris - TI and back....seriously countless machines and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun!!! I was grinning to myself cause I was on the move. If one machine wasn't being nice I would wonder until I got "the feeling"...I'd see a cat one one and think of my Halo then sit down. I'd see a motor bike on another and think of dad and sit down....I saw Hot Flash and thought of mom....funny cause that's the one I scored big on HAHAHAHA I saw a Wolf machine and thought of Twilight...my faves were the Red Hot, I thought of me ;) But I did win my 100 from a Red Hot so we kinda had a thing going on! It was actually a lot of fun wondering around alone, I took pics of everything...I saw every hotel lobby and casino floors...I saw what kind of pools each place had, the shops, the classy stuff and then the crazy Dolly Parton looking cocktail girls at the older hotels...after wondering about 6 hours I went and spent some winnings on a foot long hot dog that cost me 1.99! But did I ever earn it!!! I smiled as I put a line of mustard and ketchup on it and took a big bite...oh did I ever earn that hot dog! Needless to say, I spent a dollar and made it last ALL DAY LONG...and got a foot long!
After my adventure alone, I went back to the hotel to find Mario in the lobby...he had finished poker a couple hours before...OOPS!!! Perhaps I was out too long, I couldn't help it I was on a roll! I think Mario was wondering where I had been HAHAHA We got ready and went to a restaurant we kept seeing on the 702 Scene (TV Chan in vegas) it was called Hash House A Go Go! It's in the Imperial Palace and a MUST visit!!! The plates are beyond huge, their best known dish is for breakfast but severed anytime...Chicken fried waffles but the waffles have bacon baked into it..OH MY! mario had a burger the size of the las vegas sign...I had ribs, when they say they fall of the bone they mean it! I don't know how they managed to even get the bones onto my plate!!! Maybe they cooked them ON my plate! I highly recommend this place. After that we went and watched the dancing water...that was cool! I filmed it as well! Then we hoped a cab to Fremont Street!!! The light show was cool, down to Queen's We Will Rock You! I filmed that too!!! We went into the Golden Nugget and giggled at the servers, drank a few more drinks and bought tacky vegas stuff! I bought some fuzzy dice for my roomie and a flask for me! We headed back on our last night and found my Red Hot machines at the hotel were being worked on....I swear someone didn't like my beginners luck!!!
We checked out of the Hard Rock...sad...I'd love to go there again. Seeing all the stuff on the walls was amazing. Eddie Vedders surf board, Britney Spears MTV outfit, Xina's Chaps from the Dirty Video....Kurt Cobain's leather jacket...yes oh yes I was in heaven there!!! We wondered around for a while, the machines weren't loving us :( We went back to Pink Taco for lunch...our last meal in Vegas...gosh I love Pink Taco!
We went to the airport far to early and had a long time to wait, our flight was again late....now I know why people bitch about flights in the US! We landed and we were home. All in all it was great! I saw A LOT! More than Mario has seen in a few trips. I brought home a 100 dollar bill which is going to take me camping this summer!!! I didn't get a burn and I remember everything, hence why I can write this over a month since I've been back :P Would I go back...HECK YES!!! I'd likely stay at Hard Rock again as well...I'd like to do a pool party but rent a cabana...I'd like to go to the Grand Canyon while I'm there as well next time...and I think I'd like to go when I have a friend DJing. I couldn't help but be in awe of the show at RAIN and picturing some of my friends behind the decks.
I think I proved what happens doesn't always have to stay in Vegas, I guess that's what happens when you turn 31! I will be back...sooner rather than later!
-Put money down on RED and perhaps ODD...cause well ummm lol I DID! AND WON 5 BUCKS
-Say HIT ME or stay - FAIL...BUT WATCHED MARIO DO IT
-Put money in the first machine that calls my name when I step off the airplane - FAIL...I NEEDED TO PEE
-Say hi to the white tigars...I talk to the guy who raised them! Neat!- FAIL THEY CLOSED AT 4PM THAT DAY
-Go look at the sharks at Mandalay Bay - GOT TO THE GATES OF IT AND MARIO DIDN'T WANNA
-See the dancing water - THE WATER DANCED TO THIS KISS THIS KIIIIIIIIIIIISS
-Order the Gamblers Special which isn't on the menu at our hotel...it's a steak for 7.77 mmmmmmmmm - I WAS FAR MORE INTERESTED IN PINK TACO
-Have the cheapest breakfast in town - ONLY ATE ONE BREAKIE
-Planet Hollywood buffet - CHANGED TO MANDALAY BAY AND HAD A BDAY DINNER THERE
-Rehab!!! that's on my bday - REHAB WANTED TO CHARGE US 100 BUCKS THO WE WERE STAYING AT THAT HOTEL...WE SAID NO NO NO...WENT TO THE POOL ON THE OTHER SIDE YET COULD HEAR THE MUSIC STILL
-Oakenfold on Saturday - YUPPERS! DIDN'T STAY TOO LONG BUT GOT A GOOD TASTE OF RAIN
-Kaskade at Encore Pool Party on my bday - TALKED MY WAY INTO THIS PRICEY PARTY WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ON THE LIST BUT NAME DIDN'T SHOW UP AS THEY SAID STILL GOT IN FREE
-Maybe go on some crazy ride off the tower - NAWWWWWW
-get a sun burn - I TIRED
-Ask Elvis if he has the hippy hippy shakes - ELVIS WAS FAT! EVERYTHING SHOOK
-Run away from any mimes! - I SURE DID RUN!
-Hit the jackpot!!! MISSION COMPLETE!!!
So we got there after some delays with flights out of LAX, hung around the Hard Rock Hotel...which I LOVED! We found Pink Taco which I loved...the tortilla soup was delish and the salsa was yummy! Had mini tacos that night, pink tacos actually ;) they had pink pickled cabbage on them...oh so delish! We rested a bit and headed over the The Palms to hit up RAIN! It was strange cabbing over there, I had heard about these hotels and clubs for years...and now I was really going to them! Was there when I was 17 but that counts for nothing! My buddy DJ Kenneth Thomas got us on the list for RAIN that night where Paul Oakenfold was having his night. Sad to say I had a huge migraine so wasn't going to last long....shortly after midnight (I managed to stay until it was my bday) I cabbed back to the hotel and crashed before Mario returned.
The next morning we woke and poured more drinks...I couldn't get drunk for the life of me though!!! Not even a good buzz until the last night... honestly I think that's a good thing though! We headed over to The Wynn and Encore for their pool party! We were to be on Kaskade's guestlist but unsure what happened...they tried to charge us 50 bucks as guests to get in and we laughed...managed to say the right names and walked right in. Mario and I both ordered a drink...he had his normal double vodka 7 with a splash of Orange...28 bucks! She looked and said "Welcome to the Wynn!" Needless to say we didn't stay long...headed back to our hotel and tired to go to REHAB, the Hard Rock's pool party...they wanted 100 bucks! HELL NO! We were guests...but management changed the rules and cause we booked online via a third party we weren't allowed in the big pool on Sunday...BS! Went to the other pool, just as good with a beach and swim up tables! Had some drinks and then hit the machines after. We also went to Mandalay Bay for their Buffet! Was very good....so much to choose from! We wondered the hotel, then went to Luxor and Excalibur, both I had been to before and both didn't seem nearly as cool...I really wanted to play some games at Excalibur like I did when I was 17, they were lacking now...or perhaps I just grew up! I did see my Gas Station on the lot though!!! When I was there before I saved all my money for the games and at .50 cheeseburgers from the A&P! (sorry folks!)
SCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE....Oh backtrack first. Mario had a 3 buck voucher and said I could use it in the penny machine, a few mins later I had that voucher up to 26 bucks! Ok cash out time! I put in my own dollar...had it down only a handful of pennies when cha-ching...100 bucks!
Monday Mario went and played some poker so I thought I'd go on an adventure and MY GOSH was it ever fun! I took a cab to Planet Hollywood where they had a mile long shopping mall. I wondered around there and bought a Coat of Arms an Clan information of my Last Name...i've always wanted one of these so spent the 60 bucks to get it!!! I figure when I get married one day at least I'll have something with my old name on it...I also got my folks one, I hope they like it! It should be arriving any day...
After some shopping I put a buck into the penny machine at the Paris hotel...woohoo a couple spins in 15 bucks came out! Cash out time and move machines!!! Won a lil more in that hotel and cashed in my vouchers to move onto the next hotel!!! I could go on and on but you are all going to hate me...cause I'm a winner baby! My 1 buck I started with had me playing ALL day! 6.5 hours and every hotel from Paris - TI and back....seriously countless machines and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun!!! I was grinning to myself cause I was on the move. If one machine wasn't being nice I would wonder until I got "the feeling"...I'd see a cat one one and think of my Halo then sit down. I'd see a motor bike on another and think of dad and sit down....I saw Hot Flash and thought of mom....funny cause that's the one I scored big on HAHAHAHA I saw a Wolf machine and thought of Twilight...my faves were the Red Hot, I thought of me ;) But I did win my 100 from a Red Hot so we kinda had a thing going on! It was actually a lot of fun wondering around alone, I took pics of everything...I saw every hotel lobby and casino floors...I saw what kind of pools each place had, the shops, the classy stuff and then the crazy Dolly Parton looking cocktail girls at the older hotels...after wondering about 6 hours I went and spent some winnings on a foot long hot dog that cost me 1.99! But did I ever earn it!!! I smiled as I put a line of mustard and ketchup on it and took a big bite...oh did I ever earn that hot dog! Needless to say, I spent a dollar and made it last ALL DAY LONG...and got a foot long!
After my adventure alone, I went back to the hotel to find Mario in the lobby...he had finished poker a couple hours before...OOPS!!! Perhaps I was out too long, I couldn't help it I was on a roll! I think Mario was wondering where I had been HAHAHA We got ready and went to a restaurant we kept seeing on the 702 Scene (TV Chan in vegas) it was called Hash House A Go Go! It's in the Imperial Palace and a MUST visit!!! The plates are beyond huge, their best known dish is for breakfast but severed anytime...Chicken fried waffles but the waffles have bacon baked into it..OH MY! mario had a burger the size of the las vegas sign...I had ribs, when they say they fall of the bone they mean it! I don't know how they managed to even get the bones onto my plate!!! Maybe they cooked them ON my plate! I highly recommend this place. After that we went and watched the dancing water...that was cool! I filmed it as well! Then we hoped a cab to Fremont Street!!! The light show was cool, down to Queen's We Will Rock You! I filmed that too!!! We went into the Golden Nugget and giggled at the servers, drank a few more drinks and bought tacky vegas stuff! I bought some fuzzy dice for my roomie and a flask for me! We headed back on our last night and found my Red Hot machines at the hotel were being worked on....I swear someone didn't like my beginners luck!!!
We checked out of the Hard Rock...sad...I'd love to go there again. Seeing all the stuff on the walls was amazing. Eddie Vedders surf board, Britney Spears MTV outfit, Xina's Chaps from the Dirty Video....Kurt Cobain's leather jacket...yes oh yes I was in heaven there!!! We wondered around for a while, the machines weren't loving us :( We went back to Pink Taco for lunch...our last meal in Vegas...gosh I love Pink Taco!
We went to the airport far to early and had a long time to wait, our flight was again late....now I know why people bitch about flights in the US! We landed and we were home. All in all it was great! I saw A LOT! More than Mario has seen in a few trips. I brought home a 100 dollar bill which is going to take me camping this summer!!! I didn't get a burn and I remember everything, hence why I can write this over a month since I've been back :P Would I go back...HECK YES!!! I'd likely stay at Hard Rock again as well...I'd like to do a pool party but rent a cabana...I'd like to go to the Grand Canyon while I'm there as well next time...and I think I'd like to go when I have a friend DJing. I couldn't help but be in awe of the show at RAIN and picturing some of my friends behind the decks.
I think I proved what happens doesn't always have to stay in Vegas, I guess that's what happens when you turn 31! I will be back...sooner rather than later!
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