A Meaning In A Lyric

Often times I sit and say GOSH I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT THAT! Bit I'm too scared, shy, closed up....and don't! From now on when I have a feeling, a profound thought in length or something I want to talk about I'm going to blog! People will read it or they will not...but I'm going to let it flow!!!!!!!!!!

What sparked this?????? MUSIC of course!!!!!!!!!!

There is this amazing song, watch this first! It's called STORM by Lifehouse, or actually Jason Wade, their lead singer! Here read along!.... I'm going to again as I hear it, because TONIGHT it brought out something totally different in the song for me! Nothing about crazy relationships and rocky love, but about real love and family!....at the points I fell I will write comments in **** before. Enjoy...this song is in my top fave 10 forever!

how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
**** reminds me of the both times my parents were in the hospital with heart problems!!! it was a storm, it's shapeless and suffocating!

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light
*****I as right there when both of them went to hospital but I also felt like I wasn't....with dad I was young, and with mom I went into survival mode, call 911, get her to hospital, wtf nothing can be wrong it's mom she's superwoman!

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright
**** Exactly how I feel cause no matter what with my folks, everything will be ALRIGHT...I guess I live in reality cause I learned young and I know I won't have them forever (in this life with me) but because I've come close to losing them both before I find comfort in knowing everything will be alright

I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
**** This really reminds me of when I was 12...after that I didn't know my purpose, I was trying to grow up too fast, I just didn't care about me anymore...nothing was alright! BUT I do feel blessed from those years, I've turned them into who I am now and don't regret a thing

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I see you
the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright

and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright


*****
I do walk on water, my folks catch me when I fall...I do get lost in my dads eyes when I want to say things and with them I know everything is alright!!

Where did this all spark from?????? The reality of them moving away! It sucks...I HATE when they say it would be easier if I was "with someone"...sorry but I don't want it that way right now! I'm happy, I'm building my life...I like that I am living on my own but yes I need my mommy and daddy! I laugh that they are leaving me...they came here and 31 years later they are leaving me!!!!!!! Like LEAVING ME! Really who does that? I guess I had it coming...I wanted to leave them for so long to go back to the east. I'm happy they are going to be around family, it's something I long for....but I so worry that I can't get there if something happens.

It's silly as I listen to this song OVER AND OVER tonight! I remember the first time I heard it, going over the bridge into Seattle...my mom LOVES Lifehouse, lifehouse reminds me of Seattle....lifehouse reminds me of Dave from Wave when we first went to their concert years ago, lifehouse reminds me of starting my career, of figuring out my passions because music gave me peace when I needed comfort!

And as I write this...I've figured out I need to race off to Seattle in a few hours with a VERY good friend and see someone else. I am going to be very over tired but I don't care! I'm following my passions, my dreams.........my storm!